hibernation

and as the snow melts, replenishing the earth here in denver, the sun’s rays seem to be renewing much inside and around me. it’s moments when i capture a glimpse of my mint plants beginning to emerge from soiled sleep or the christmas rose who has wakened her pinkish blossoms in march, where i become aware of my own personal wintered sleep.

this sleep has hidden my mind away from descending upon a dissertation that is still deeply covered by soil…actually quite in seedling form, i have come to realize that with due time, it too will become a christmas rose. i also understand that my lifecourse in teaching is just beginning, also striving for springtime sun. it will flourish with the seasons. and although this past quarter has had its blizzard moments, it has only made my roots stronger.

i have also understood too, how the love in my life has taken flight toward warmth. i have shut my eyes in snow capped slumber to its knocking, denying that i can hear the echoes of a heart’s renewal. only until recent have i answered; peeling back the calloused blankets of hurt and loss.

hibernation has ended.